Note to Self

All the conceptsI have read and practiced about the faith of letting go and flowing with the river of my life are true. It is a challenge to always give up having things fall into place how I see it and instead allowing for the future to unfold naturally.

It isn’t just about letting go of control and “musts” in the flow, it is as much about communication, emotions, mental thoughts and physical action coexisting happily in the flow…. and some days it is all I can do to get my thoughts and actions to sometimes match!

Dams, boulders and other HUGE blocks can become unbearable obstacles very easily. Either self-imposed ones or those, which rolled in front of me. I try, try, try to have constant awareness when these structures find their way ONTO MY ROAD. And I do what I can to stop for a minute and listen. I figure something has to be giving me directions on my next move if I am just quiet enough to hear.

The bottom line is…if I can listen and take a different action than normal, I get that I will endure less pain and sic’ suffering on its own ear.

I was upset a few days ago, as in an elevator of emotions that were over the top on the 15th floor. You know the place; the one where the same sentences keep repeating over and over through my head.

I was taking a shower scrubbing my hair and replaying the scene ad nauseum, when something inside gave rise for me to pause for a second.

It spoke to me and asked me just to breathe for a moment.

As I did, my body started relaxing and I felt my brain start to unwind its tightness. I was so wound up with all the twists and turns I had in trying to solve this dilemma.

It became clearer with each moment of calmness, that I actually had no reason to be upset.

It wasn’t my problem to solve.

It didn’t belong to me!

I was able to pick myself up and out of being extremely upset to relishing the calm in those moments. It played out clearly. I stopped personalizing and opened up to the space beyond my mind. I felt the connection to everything and as I stopped pounding my head on the “boulder” in my road…I found the flow. 

We battle with life, others and ourselves.

Mostly, we stand in our own way….and our very old patterns remain intact proving over and over again that the same thing MUST keep happening beyond our control.

It is false and it is not inevitable.

Stand still let the moment “be”. Whatever you are trying to change, force or beat down into submission–stop. All of the disconnecting, blaming, judging, punishing, hiding, giving up, becoming depressed, hopeless and running are the results of these patterns winning again.

It’s time for you or me to take the reins as we gallop through this life.

As I practice this awareness, I find my clarity is very strong.

Some days, it may take me a minute to catch the pattern of thought that leads directly to my hell. Sometimes to do something completely foreign to my usual way of responding is as hard as performing surgery on myself. Yet, by having this awareness, I feel freer, happier and more at ease than ever.

I really do grasp the concept of letting go and trusting that all will work out for the best.

I don’t have to throw down the gauntlet, upset the apple cart or make a disaster of any part of my existence.

All I have to do is state what is true for me (and “no” I cannot tell someone else what is true for them–see the above paragraph on patterns) believe that my higher power, God, the Universe or whom I put my faith in will come through for me as I participate in my life.

And when I don’t get my “picture”…..I don’t get as upset as I did in the past.

Most of the time I realize I just haven’t seen the picture beyond the tip of my nose yet. And when I realize the world isn’t over and new possibility can come, I feel a sense of giddiness and excitement like a kid on Christmas morning as to what awaits me!

I have a little thing I do each day.

I ask/pray for things I want to be in my life that day in a general way. And each day–I swear it is answered. I have to pay attention, because it can come in a way I don’t expect it at all.  I find it stops me from the struggle of feeling alone in this world and that someone is listening. 

And the bigger things I request, the ones in which I have had to take a very long time to gather faith not just in the Universe, but myself are on their way to me. I had to break out of these old beliefs which told me I was nothing and finally believe I deserve something besides lumps of coal.

We are all on our own journey.

I hope sharing some of my own experiences with how I made it easier for myself are helpful….on those days when you struggle too. And heck! I may have to re-read what I wrote when I may find myself struggling once again.

 

Believing and Well…..Believing, Part 1

How to begin this post?

First, the key is ABUNDANCE in all things.

I am stating it as though I just learned this concept, but it REALLY clicked!

Believing in scarcity creates fear, tightening of the belt, not making decisions to bring you FULFILLING success and leaves you feeling stuck. Why? It’s the fear of ending up with NOTHING!

I am okay with nothing; as long as I keep moving toward what I believe will happen for me. I make a left turn, instead of a right one. I’ve also learned what the words, synchronicity, dreams, acceptance, peace, unconditional love, kindness and self-love actually mean for me–rather than just lip service or the place more fortunate human beings make decisions from…I have learned these are my deepest truth.

Abundance creates a straighter path to your goals; when you risk by making choices which could be scary, but are “in-line” with your goals–you are holding up your end of the bargain!!

In essence, you are stating: “Obstacles will NOT hold me back; I BELIEVE I will attain this goal or maybe even something better!” And the Universe jumps right in by providing you opportunities to get there!

When we come from scarcity, you may as well say your evening commute home has an extra 50 miles every night. And as you drive this l-o-n-g road home, your only thought may be worrying if you have a home when you get there! What if something happened while I was gone? What if the house blew up? Or its been repossessed—I won’t have the safety of my home anymore!! Oh my!!! Even though, I am not crazy about that home…its the home I know!! Now to live from your heart and what you want in your life, sometimes you have to give up the long zig-zagging drive, put the home you know–up for sale, so you can move onto a happier, more satisfying place to hang your bird feeder.

When making commitments to believing certain things are gonna happen for you, it creates a Universal shift.

Especially when you start making different decisions outside of your comfort zone. New choices targeted to what you want to manifest in your life.

My life has already changed since making those declarations almost a month ago! Seriously…that is why this is going to require a few posts backtracking over the last 5 days.

I noticed early last week that little symbols of synchronicity were appearing in my life. Items such as sunflowers, ladybugs, hummingbirds, butterflies, pennies and white feathers are some of the guideposts I keep an eye out for on a regular basis.

One evening, I was moving my comforter when I saw something small and red. I swiped it off my bed, as I was moving my hand I touched it, realizing it was a ladybug. I looked on the floor, but couldn’t find the ladybug–so strange considering none of the windows or doors were open in my home. The next morning I came back from the gym and the ladybug was on my pillow, I sat down and it crawled onto my finger. Little did I know this would be the start of so many messages I’d be receiving the past several days.

Last Friday, I was going on a road trip with my daughter to the wedding of a dear friend. I was so excited to be going, which is quite different than how I used to feel about weddings. I decided to treat the week-end like an adventure, being in the groove of the living! It was going to be “fun”, going with the flow and being happy in the moment.

We hit no traffic on the way up to the mountains, although I did receive a speeding ticket (and hey, the officer was kind enough to take 6 miles off the speed), I didn’t allow it to alter my mood. We arrived and immediately went up into the mountains. We got out at one dirt trail wearing our flip flops (the thought never occurred to change shoes) as we were trying to locate a beautiful site I remembered from my last trip there. We found it with ease and my daughter was amazed at its natural beauty.

I love nature and if I could live in a hammock between two trees, I would be pretty happy!

As I went to bed that night, I inhaled and exhaled, letting myself accept all that is not happening in my life and what I have lost along the way, giving way to allow myself peace. Little did I know the dream I would have that night; followed the next morning by the CRAZY synchronicity, which happened as I came to the deepest place of acceptance, love and truly letting go. Giving my “unresolved wants” up to God/Universe.

Stay tuned for my next post on my dream, THE CRAZY SYNCHRONICITY, what I made peace with…why believing, trusting and having faith in yourself and a higher power really do make things easier, if we just allow it! Til then….be well!

Believing, a year of intention

I have always found it fascinating to watch people commit to something. I mean really commit. Stick with it through thick and thin, up and down, sideways and everything in between. I like the idea of a year, 365 days. The thing is what have I been committed to in terms of my own growth? “Believing”, believing in myself, life and that the impossible, is possible. The only one standing in the way of anything in this world is oneself. Whether it is what obstacles you created yesterday to trip over today or ones you are creating right now, because you don’t believe you deserve better.

We are ALWAYS the ones holding our own key to the door in front of us or unlocking the self-imposed prison we have come to call home. I have lived in my own prison at times. Life experiences happening over and over would create a matching belief to some basic core belief (a misconception, really) I had about myself. I would go into a situation with an unconscious belief about myself and make sure that I fulfilled it over and over. And now?

I believe that we create our own reality. I believe, because I have witnessed it with myself and others. And as I have watched my own life blossom and grow, it got me to thinking…its time for the BIG stuff! I have grown into believing I deserve an even more juicy existence and I can feel all of MY dreams in me coming alive. I am ready to receive with open arms!!. I truly believe I can have it all. Having it all is subjective of course, for me it is to add to the fulfillment I already feel on the inside and now to raise the temperature about about 1000 degrees and watch it get hot! hot! hot! Woohoo!!!!

Who wants to join me? If you wanna accompany me on the journey of believing in the next 365 days…email or leave a comment. I already have a compadre who is going to join me on the journey. She is a woman who has an intention(s) and is awesome at co-creating her universe!!

I will post later on this evening, what I believe and know will happen for me this year and what my friend is believing will happen for her this year too!!! And then anyone else who really wants to rock n’ roll, make the commitment and have a lot of fun being the captain of his or her ship, please contact me…. peace, love and Bobby Sherman.